Hi All,
It’s been a long few months! After I got home from CFD on August 18th, I was going to Summit Eating Disorders Outpatient Program for 8-12 hours a day. The first day I was at Summit, we went out to lunch at an Asian Noodle Bar. I was scared to death because I knew Asian food made my mom sick after her surgery…and I’d never eaten noodles before. I refused to eat lunch, and that is what started me on my backwards road from recovery.
After several times of refusing foods I didn’t think I could eat, Summit staff told me that I would not be able to stay in their progam. My mom picked me up mid-day Wednesday August 26th and I was at home (by myself most the time) for about a week. If you know anything about bulimia or eating disorders, you know this is a recipe for disaster!
It only took a week for me to get even worse than I was before I went to CFD. I’m not going to say I was right back to where I started, I wasn’t. I still had learned and was knowledgable of what I needed to do…I just didn’t think I had the strength to do it. After a clinic appointment with Dr. Peebles, I was sent back to the CCP unit at Lucile Packard. I ate everything while I was there, took my meds, the whole bit. I only stayed five days, and went back home for a week.
At home, I was restricting my food intake, and my depression was really bad. I honestly saw no point in living anymore. I was sent back to CFD on Friday September 18th. I guess I just needed a little help getting back on my feet and believing in myself. I think it helped a lot.
I came home on October 12th, and started at Summit the next morning. I was a little nervous about going back, but it has been going really well so far! I started out going Monday-Friday from 8-11 or 12 everyday. Next week I will be going four days a week, since I am doing so well! I never thought I would get to this point. Ever. Finally seeing a tiny speck of light at the end of the tunnel…
And of course, there’s always another health issue. I’ve been getting pain and nausea everytime I eat. We went to the ER after I got so nauseous I turned a shade of green (I didn’t see it, but that’s what the nurse told me) and the doctor at the ER did an ultrasound of my gallbladder, which has gallstones. So hopefully I will see a surgeon this week (still fighting with the insurance about that) and get this surgery over with soon, so I can get back to my recovery! Because being nauseous everytime you eat does NOT help with an eating disorder recovery.
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Hugs,
Kaitlyn
