Chico & A Poem.

I just had an amazing week. It has been awhile since I’ve had one of those! Stayed with Diane and Mom for a little over a week. It was so nice. Thank you Di and Mom! I can’t wait to have another crazy night with you Di. And I can’t believe I never even thought about getting a picture! Oh well.

I found this poem on my computer, I wrote it a little after I moved. I thought I should post something interesting. Pray for me as I try to keep my head above water.

Here’s my poem

Homesick

Thought I was doing ok
The pain was slowly going away
But I was just lying to myself
Distracting myself
Put that fake smile on
For everyone to see.

As soon as I’ve got nothing to do
I start thinking about you
What could’ve been
What should’ve been.

The pain comes back like an open wound
Ripped open by the sound of your voice
I miss your hugs
Your support.

You helped me up when I was down,
Now I’ve got to help myself
But I just keep going farther down
Sinking into that dark black pit.

You tell me to get up
To be happy
But I cannot find it in me

I want to be happy
For you
But
The pain gets worse
By the sound of your voice.
I’m so homesick…

Okay, tell me what you think. I know it’s not that great, but I just write what I’m feeling.

More Later,

<3 Kait

Love and Forgiveness

 

What have I done?

My heart feels like a ton

I didn’t realize how

Much they love me now.

Didn’t want to believe it

So my heart would not be broken

Help me believe them

When they’ve spoken

Of their love

 

I’ve made a mistake

That makes my heart ache

All I can do

Is ask you

For your forgiveness…

 

Please, please don’t

Let go of me.

I fall on my knees

And ask for your love

As I keep my eyes

Fixed up above.

 

Hold me now

Don’t let go

Hold me tight

Show me the light

Tell me it will be

All right.

Late Night Poetry

God, Don’t Let Me Fall

God, help me understand

That this is what you’ve planned.

Help me to believe

Even when others in my life leave.

 

Remind me of your love

That I need to be part of

Don’t let me turn my back

Help me to stay on track.

 

Help me to rely on you

Even when I’m feeling blue

When it feels like a hole in my heart

Remind me to not start

Falling back into that depression pit

It seems so easy to just quit.

 

I want to give up

Just close up

Throw my life away

I pray

That someone would care

Anyone out there…

 

But sometimes I feel

Like I must be surreal

Invisible to all

Nobody hears my call.

 

Remind me of your love

Which I am so undeserving of

Lord, take my hand,

And help me get through what you have planned.

I know if you bring me to it,

You can bring me through it.

Please, God, don’t let me fall,

Take my hand and help me through it all.

 

By Kaitlyn Joseph