Pre-Surgery Post.

I’ve been posting blogs about my upcoming surgery for awhile now. Some of them were full of excitement, some frustration (mostly with the insurance), and some of fear and trying to find my faith.

As the surgery gets closer (March 12th), I am having stronger and stronger mixes of all of these feelings. The frustration with the insurance is gone, they finally approved my surgery yesterday! But all of the other feelings, fear, excitement, doubt, and trying to find where my faith lies in all of this…those feelings are all still there.

Thank you for your continued prayers throughout all of these doctors and surgeries. I will update as soon as I am home and feeling up to it.

Always,

Kaitlyn

America…Needs Help.

This past week, I have been on a mostly all liquid diet, as prep for my surgery next Thursday. It has made me realize how much this nation revolves around food. Every other commercial on TV is food/restaurant related. Every add in a magazine is food related. Americans revolve around food. People are living to eat, not eating to live.

I realize that I may have been one of these people…but I am ready for this change. I am going to start eating to live. My hope for this surgery is that it helps me to not go to food when I am overwhelmed with emotions, but to instead talk it out, whether that be with my mom or a friend or God. But I am not going to go to food to cover up my emotions. Obviously, it hasn’t helped, but has drug me deeper into my pit of emotions.

Thank you God for providing a surgery date and carrying me through this. Remind me everyday to trust you and lean on you in everything through these next few months.

More Later,

Kait

Life Update

So much has been happening lately. Let’s see if I can even list it all…

1. My dog, Daisy, who is now just past eight years old, has a bone tumor in her shoulder and probably only has about one more month, if that, to live.

2. I will most likely be having another D&C this next week. I have an IUD in, but it’s stopped helping and I am in a lot of  pain.

3. My gastric bypass surgery is most likely going to happen in March, but we’ll see how the new insurance goes.

4. The new insurance starts this month!

Since I haven’t been feeling too hot, I haven’t been getting much schoolwork done. I NEED to get back to a somewhat normal schedule. I have had a very hard time sleeping, even after taking two Tylenol w/codeine, which normally knock me out.

Well, I’m off to bed…hopefully to get some sleep!

Like the new header?
Always,

Kaitlyn

Sleep…A Lack Of

For whatever reasons…(and I have my theories on this one too) I have not been able to sleep lately. It is extremely irritating because I usually have an exceptionally easy time falling asleep and staying asleep. And here it is not even 7AM and I’ve been awake for three hours now!

This is really getting old. The main reason is probably because I don’t feel very safe here. For certain reasons. And even doping up on Benedryl hasn’t helped the past few weeks either. I even took TWO Tylenol with Codeine the other night for my pain and was NOT sleepy. Usually one knocks me out.

So…does anyone out there have sleep advice? Besides the obvious. Breath deep, relax, lay in the dark, etc. I’m really at a loss.

Oh, and a surgery update. It might be early March now. We can’t start the new insurance till February 5th because they screwed that up too. It was starting February 1st.

Always,

Kait

Erg.

Okay, is it just me or does anyone else have those days when everything gets on your nerves? Well, I have been having one of those months.

Every little thing a certain person does just bugs the CRAP out of me. I can’t help it. I hate this feeling! Someone make it go away!!!

Going to Stanford this Friday. Very, VERY small chance that I might get a surgery date or maybe month. Cross your fingers.

I’m going to Chico for the weekend for Kathleen’s birthday. I might                  ( I hope)  be staying for the whole week, but we’ll see. I really just need out of here. That’s been my motivation for getting schoolwork done. I guess whatever works, right?

That’s all for now.

~Kaitlyn

New Year…Good or Bad?

Life has been…crazy. Not pleasant. Something like that.

I sure hope and pray that this year is much better than these last two years have been. It seems weird to think that in about 8 months, I could be living somewhere else, going to college, working…reality.

As far as I know, I plan on graduating in May of this year. I will discuss that further with my teacher this Monday when I go back to school.

I got Columbo back on Christmas day. That takes a lot more stress out not worrying about Todd all the time. Babies are exhausting! I hope I gave him a good start for Kay & Amy, our friends that I started raising him for.

I know that God has a plan for everything, but I honestly think He put Columbo in my life for a reason. For many reasons. He is always there to comfort me through the tough times, when I feel alone. He gives me a purpose. Maybe I’m crazy. Excuse the rambling

One good thing. I finally bought myself an Ipod! It’s a Classic, 120GB of memory…it’s amazing!

I’ll try to keep updating my blog. Anyone reading?

375 Days…

Until I turn 18! I know it seems silly to start counting now, but I seriously can NOT wait!

Okay, back to reality! I haven’t been blogging as much lately, no excuses, just haven’t. So, here are the pictures of Guido I said I would post.

 

 

 

 

 

Todd was feeling left out…so here’s a recent picture of him!

No news about insurance, or doctors. My heart doctor put me on a blood pressure medication, and within one week, it went from 156/127 to 120/90! Major improvement! We found that out today, when I went to donate blood at a Bloodsource van outside our church today. I have to admit, I was kind of scared, but saving two lives was totally worth it! Now the muscle in my arm is super sore, but again, worth it!

Hopefully we’ll set up our Christmas tree tonight. My mom and stepdad have been shopping all day, so I’m not sure when they’ll be back! They said something about buying a fake tree (UGH) but, fake or not, it still makes the house Christmasy!

I’m so excited for Christmas! My 17th birthday is December 16th, and December 19th we’re going to Chico, and I’m going to stay with Brandon and Angie until Christmas day!

Merry CHRISTmas!!!

Thanksgiving Rush

Whew! This is the first time I have had a chance to breathe since last Wednesday! We left early Thursday morning for the 4 hour drive to Monterey/Carmel. Had Thanksgiving with the step-family, played games, etc.

Then we got up early to go shopping in Downtown Carmel, which was extremely crowded, but fun all the same. Everything is so expensive though! Saturday morning, we went to the Monterey Bay Aquarium which was amazing! I had never been there and it was a facinating experience.

After that, we went to meet Guido’s new parents! He was so excited to see me he jumped all over the place. Emmy and Hans were so nice, they were so grateful for Guido and it was great to see them and Guido so happy! Emmy said they would bring Guido to come visit me when I have my surgery at Stanford He’s a registered service dog, so he can go anywhere.

I still have to upload the pictures, so I will post them in a different post.

Comment away!

Where Did My Hair Go?!?

I got my hair layered and thinned for the first time EVER last Friday. I am still getting used to it…it is kind of frizzy/curly/fluffy and I’m only used to it being straight, because it was so thick it couldn’t do anything else! I can actually wear my hair down without my neck getting 105 degrees!

So…Do you like it?

Apologies

 

Sorry to all who are reading my blog. I am very overwhelmed with life at the moment.  I will update you soon, but probably not until I get back from Carmel. Next Sunday or Monday would be a good posibility.