Surgery? … Now?

Yes, I know I just had surgery, but… here goes another one!

As we were driving up to Chico Friday afternoon, I got a call from Beth, the surgery coordinator at Stanford. She said they had a surgery date for March 12th and wanted to know if we could work with them since it was so close. US work with THEM? Umm…duh! It’s only taken five months for a surgery date to come around, I am NOT waiting for the next one!

So, this Thursday we have to go to the hospital for an all day pre-op appointment. We have to BE there at 8 AM, which means we have to leave at about 5 AM! Ugh.

The part that stinks is these next two weeks I have to do a “liquid” diet. I have to drink Boost drinks and I can also have yogurt, pudding, jello…etc. It’s okay, could be worse I guess.

Now all we have to do is PRAY. Because we still have not gotten an approval from the insurance. We could not know until the day before surgery, but I PRAY that it will happen before that.

So…ten more days. I CAN do this. Sis, I’m going to need your support on this. It’s only the first day of this liquid junk and I am already having a hard time…

Of course I am nervous, but I have been thinking about all this worrying that I seem to do so much…it is getting beyond ridiculous. The other night, I made the decision in my head I was not going to worry about this surgery. I know God has it in His hands and has complete control. If something does go wrong, it’s just part of His plan. I know He will guide and comfort me through this major change in my life. As soon as I silently made that decision, it was like a huge load was lifted off my shoulders!

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Always,

Kait

Another Chico Weekend

I have been counting down the days!  2  1/2 more!

This Friday we’re headed off to Chico again. My mom has a doctors appointment on Friday, because she has been really sick lately. I am really worried about her, please pray for her.
I hope to see my bestest friends Lindsey and Kathleen on Friday afternoon, but the details haven’t been made out yet.
And of course, I am excited to see my big sis, and stay the night with her and mom on Friday and maybe Saturday too…again, details have not been worked out. I am hoping I will have Saturday night with her, since I won’t be able to see her for awhile after this weekend. Mom says I need to focus on school more. Ugh.

Also, probably next week, I am getting an ultrasound done on my ovaries to check for cysts and what-not. I’m not sure what is causing my pain. I am SO fed up with the surgeon for the gastric bypass in Stanford. Still no surgery date, which means it will definitely NOT be in March, but now they’re saying “Maybe April…”  (or May, June, July or August) !!!

And I just got a letter in the mail from HealthNet, saying they are not approving me seeing Dr. Garrison! So what does that mean, they’re not going to pay for the surgery I had last Tuesday??? Someone from HealthNet called my mom to tell her they had approved it! I hate health insurance! And I love my mommy so much for fighting with them for me for so long.

On a lighter note, I went to school today for the first time in about a week and a half. I finished my English 3A Unit 3 test, and passed it with an A (only missing one question!). And I finally got another elective class called Independent Living. It sounded kind of fun…teaches you how to cook and sew and live on your own, which I need to do sometime in the next year or so.

That’s pretty much all for now!

~Kaitlyn

Surgery Update

Hey All,

Surgery went well. No cancer or anything bad was found. Which is good news. But…if my pain doesn’t go away, we may end up doing another surgery with the laproscope or whatever it’s called to check my ovaries, because that may be where my pain is coming from.

I hope and pray that this takes care of my pain, but I am not so sure. It is a different kind of pain than it has been before with my previous surgeries.

Keep praying. I’ll keep trusting God.

More Later,

Always,

Kaitlyn

Just Another Surgery.

We went to see Dr. Garrison on Thursday…He took one look at me, I told him how much pain I was in and said “Ok, I’ll do surgery on Tuesday, if that’s okay with you?” And of course that’s okay with me, if it’s going to help get rid of this pain!

So, surgery tomorrow! I still don’t even know what time it’s at, just that I have to be there at 8:30 AM for pre-op and waiting, waiting and more waiting. I’ve spent this past weekend in Chico with Diane, and I am SO glad Diane’s going to be with me for this surgery.

For those of you wondering, this is number SEVEN surgery for me.

More Later,

Kaitlyn

Thank You God!

Thank you to all who have been praying for me. I received a call from my mom this morning after she went to work. She called the insurance and they approved me to see Dr. Garrison!!! Thank you God! I was so dreading the appointment on Friday. So, now that appointment is canceled and I may see Dr. Garrison TOMORROW! I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy to see a doctor in my life.

More Later,

Kaitlyn

Stupid, Stupid Insurance.

I am SO frustrated with health insurances right now. I have been in a lot of unexplainable pain lately and really need to see my OB/GYN, Dr. Garrison who is in Willows, CA. Well, I can’t because he’s not in Sacramento County! So, my mom calls the insurance and they said it could take about 15 days to even get it approved to see him.

In the mean time, my mom made an appointment to see a 70+ year old man who is an OB/GYN in Sacramento. Umm, no… I don’t think so.

So, right now my choices are either to wait to see Dr. Garrison and be in pain, or see some old guy who I don’t even know who will probably have to examine me. I’m leaning more towards the choice of just being in pain.

My mom made the appointment for Friday at 2:30 pm, which just so happens to be the same day Di was going to pick me up for the weekend. Great. Just great!

More Later,

Kaitlyn

Life Update

So much has been happening lately. Let’s see if I can even list it all…

1. My dog, Daisy, who is now just past eight years old, has a bone tumor in her shoulder and probably only has about one more month, if that, to live.

2. I will most likely be having another D&C this next week. I have an IUD in, but it’s stopped helping and I am in a lot of  pain.

3. My gastric bypass surgery is most likely going to happen in March, but we’ll see how the new insurance goes.

4. The new insurance starts this month!

Since I haven’t been feeling too hot, I haven’t been getting much schoolwork done. I NEED to get back to a somewhat normal schedule. I have had a very hard time sleeping, even after taking two Tylenol w/codeine, which normally knock me out.

Well, I’m off to bed…hopefully to get some sleep!

Like the new header?
Always,

Kaitlyn

Random Survey.

What time did you get up this morning?
Umm. Four AM. Then I took more pain meds and went back to bed until about 11.

Who was your last text from?
Diane

Anything you would change about your life right now?
Nothing. Everything happens for a reason.

Do you mind sleeping on the floor?
Yes, I hate it!

Are you mad at anyone?
Not anymore.

Are you talkative?
Only with certain people.

Do you have a best friend?
Yes, a few.

Do you care what people think about you?
I try not to. Sometimes I let it get the best of me.

Are you ticklish?
Very.

What do you always take with you when you go out?
My phone, and a puppy

When was the last time you saw snow?
About a month ago. My dad sent me a picture from his house in WA.

How long is your hair?
Shoulder length.

What color are your eyes?
Brown.

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
Not usually.

Ever liked someone that you didn’t think you stood a chance with?
Completely.

How do you feel about abortions?
Don’t EVEN get me started. I hate them.

Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
I have.

Did you hug or kiss anyone in the last 74 hours?
Hugged.

Have you ever seen the last person you texted naked?
Nope. That would be awkward.

Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yesss. Very much so.

Do you honestly believe that good things come to those who wait?
Not at the moment. Ask me in a few months.

What catches your eye more? Eyes or smile?
Smile first, then eyes.

Are you starting to realize anything?
Ha. That’s a very broad question. Yes, I am realizing many things.

What are you listening to?
Nothing at the moment.

Are you seeing the person you like this weekend?
Nope.

Is there anyone you trust who you shouldn’t?
Probably.

What was your dream about last night?
I didn’t dream.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Not at the moment.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Nope.

Do you fall for people easily?
I don’t think so.

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
Brandon, Diane, Mom, Lindsey.

In the past week have you smiled?
A few times.

Last week…now that’s a whole different story!

Are you listening to music right now?
Negative.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
Ow. Why can’t I freaking move without hurting?!?

Are you afraid of rollercoasters?
Sort of. I’d be willing to give it a try again.

Are you keeping a secret right now?

Lots of them.

Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?

I do it all the time.

Do you like getting hugs from other people?

If I know them, yes!

What’s the weather like outside?

Kind of cold, but sunny.

What was the last thing you drank?

7-Up

Do you know anyone else with your name?
A few.

Are you tired right now?
No, just feeling like crap.

When was the last time you really laughed?
Hmm, that would be last Saturday night/Sunday morning with Diane.

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
Probably my mom.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Yes.

How important is trust?
The MOST important thing. If you can’t trust someone… don’t even get me started.

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
Yes.

Do you think you’ve changed over the last year?
I think so. You tell me!

Sleep…A Lack Of

For whatever reasons…(and I have my theories on this one too) I have not been able to sleep lately. It is extremely irritating because I usually have an exceptionally easy time falling asleep and staying asleep. And here it is not even 7AM and I’ve been awake for three hours now!

This is really getting old. The main reason is probably because I don’t feel very safe here. For certain reasons. And even doping up on Benedryl hasn’t helped the past few weeks either. I even took TWO Tylenol with Codeine the other night for my pain and was NOT sleepy. Usually one knocks me out.

So…does anyone out there have sleep advice? Besides the obvious. Breath deep, relax, lay in the dark, etc. I’m really at a loss.

Oh, and a surgery update. It might be early March now. We can’t start the new insurance till February 5th because they screwed that up too. It was starting February 1st.

Always,

Kait

Chico & A Poem.

I just had an amazing week. It has been awhile since I’ve had one of those! Stayed with Diane and Mom for a little over a week. It was so nice. Thank you Di and Mom! I can’t wait to have another crazy night with you Di. And I can’t believe I never even thought about getting a picture! Oh well.

I found this poem on my computer, I wrote it a little after I moved. I thought I should post something interesting. Pray for me as I try to keep my head above water.

Here’s my poem

Homesick

Thought I was doing ok
The pain was slowly going away
But I was just lying to myself
Distracting myself
Put that fake smile on
For everyone to see.

As soon as I’ve got nothing to do
I start thinking about you
What could’ve been
What should’ve been.

The pain comes back like an open wound
Ripped open by the sound of your voice
I miss your hugs
Your support.

You helped me up when I was down,
Now I’ve got to help myself
But I just keep going farther down
Sinking into that dark black pit.

You tell me to get up
To be happy
But I cannot find it in me

I want to be happy
For you
But
The pain gets worse
By the sound of your voice.
I’m so homesick…

Okay, tell me what you think. I know it’s not that great, but I just write what I’m feeling.

More Later,

<3 Kait